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ROSLYN: You've reached the Love and Luck Podcast.

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JASON: Hey, so I hate this thing where you have to go to work in the morning. I hate waking up and not having you next to me, it seriously sucks. I miss you. I hope you have a good day at work today.

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KANE: Hey, I hate leaving you in the morning, too. It definitely sucks. I miss you too.

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JASON: Clearly the solution to this problem is that I kidnap you and store you under my bed. Or maybe I could hide under your bed. Hmmm. Must start planning this evil scheme. Operation: don't be too far away from boyfriend because it makes us sad. Good name, I think.

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KANE: [Amused] I think you need to come up with shorter names for your evil schemes. Also, I mean... if we're both sad to part ways when we do, we could always talk about moving in together. Just a thought.

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JASON: [Uncomfortable] Hey. Um. Yeah. I mean, we could talk about moving in together. I mean, unless you're joking, in which case, like, [forced chuckle] you know, g-good one, you got me.

But I mean... uh, it's a really big step? But I mean, we can talk about it. Talking about it isn't doing it. It's just... talking about it. Yeah. Yeah.

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KANE: [Amused] Hey, don't freak out, okay? It was just an idea. We don't even have to talk about it if it makes you uncomfortable. Don't worry about it.

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JASON: [Anxious] Hey, it's me.

I just wanted to say... I mean - I do want to talk about it? I mean, if you want to talk about it. If you don't want to talk about it then... we can just not talk about it. I mean, we don't have to talk about it, you know? We can just... keep on... going... doing whatever... I mean... we haven't even been together very long, you know? So we don't have to talk about it... but we can! [Quietly] Fuck.

Argh, I don't know. I'm all... mixed up and freaked out. Ugh.

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JASON: Hey, it's me again. Look, I just, uh, wanted to apologise for that last voicemail. I think it made me sound like I definitely don't want to talk about moving in together, and that's... that's not the case. Like... I am definitely freaking out, but... like... we can definitely talk about it.

[Sigh] The more I think about it, the more I think... I think maybe it would be weird, now, if we didn't talk about it? Just because it's... well, it's come up now, so we should talk about it. There's no pressure though, right? It's just talking.

I... I really do love you, though. And I love being with you. And I really do hate it when we have to go back to our own houses. And look it's... it's just kind of a big deal to me, the idea of moving in together. I've never lived with a partner before, and it's just... it's a big deal to me. Yeah.

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KANE: Hey honey, don't freak out too much okay? We'll just talk about it tonight. No big decisions, just talking. It'll be okay, I promise. I love you.

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JASON: Hey... thanks. I'll see you tonight. Love you.

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JASON: Hey babe, hope you have a good day at work today. Also... I know last night we said we'd hold off on actual decisions about moving in together for a little while but... I've been thinking about it on the way home. Not just the idea itself, but also how we talked about it last night, and how I felt while we discussed it.

Like... I've always loved my independence, you know? Well, I mean, of course you know, you were there for my freakout yesterday. But that's just it... you were there for it, and I didn't feel like you were upset with me at any point, or disappointed, or anything like that. You were just... there. I was so scared and you were just gentle with me. I didn't want to leave, or hide, or argue, or anything like that, which normally are my go to moves when it comes to emotionally heavy conversations.

I... I really do hate it when we have to sleep in separate houses, and I hate it that we can't assume we'll be eating dinner together without confirming it first, and I hate that I have to pack a backpack to spend the night with you instead of just... putting things away and going to bed.

If... if you'd like to, or if you feel up to it? I'd like to talk about moving in together again. But not just a "feeling out how we feel about the idea" talk. A real one. Maybe even a planning one?

I'd... I'd like to move in with you. I'm still scared about it, but... I feel safe with you. And maybe we're moving too fast or whatever, but, I really don't care, and it's not like I've shied away from being a queer stereotype in literally any other part of my personality, so... yeah.

I love being with you, and... I want to live with you.

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KANE: [Gleeful] Oh my god, Jason, I'm so excited. I've had a stupid grin on my face ever since I got your voicemail. I'm just... I'm really happy. I love you and I would love to live with you. Let's definitely start talking about it seriously. I can't wait.

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ROSLYN: Love and Luck is written by Erin Kyan, and produced by Passer Vulpes Productions. Kane is voiced by Lee Davis-Thalbourne. Jason is voiced by Erin Kyan. Credits spoken by Roslyn Quin. Recorded by Kermie Breydon.

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